Hwasa Opens Up About Struggles with Anorexia and Depression on Bodymentary

In a recent episode of SBS's special program Bodymentary - Confessions About 'Weight', singer Hwasa (화사) candidly shared her experiences with anorexia and depression. During the broadcast on December 29, she revealed that as a trainee, she would check her weight daily, posting her weight records on the wall to submit during monthly evaluations. "I didn't know what the right answer was, so I just stopped eating altogether. On weigh-in days, I would take laxatives from the pharmacy before stepping on the scale," she disclosed, shocking viewers.

Hwasa recounted the emotional turmoil she faced, stating, "Whenever I secretly ate, I felt overwhelming guilt and anger, leading me to cry and purge, which eventually spiraled into anorexia." She reflected on how her physical discomfort and constant salivation contributed to her struggles with both anorexia and depression, noting that her mood affected those around her, which she found troubling.

She expressed that the unattainable standards of beauty were exhausting, and during moments of frustration, she channeled her feelings into her song 'Maria'. "I sang about the pressure of these impossible beauty standards, but sadly, nothing changed," she lamented. However, she found solace in the feedback from listeners who felt comforted by her music, stating, "It was heartwarming to hear that people felt empowered by my song. I wanted to show that 'this is who I am' and to showcase my unique qualities proudly."

Despite facing harsh criticism regarding her appearance in 2024, Hwasa maintained her characteristic positive energy, responding to the negativity with grace. She remarked, "I find it tiresome; I see it as my fate and my karma for choosing this path."